Farewell 2015, Hello 2016

WHat if you fly

What a year! 2015 has been such a milestone year for me and my family… I’m equal parts sad it’s ending and relieved for it to be over.

I started 2015 with the Ali Edwards online workshop One Little Word ( you can find out more about this workshop here). I stuck with the program for the first few months and then life took off and I didn’t get back to it. And while for a moment I feel guilty, how can I be anything but grateful for all it brought! My word was BRAVE, and I’ve achieved so much this year with this as my mantra. When I re-read those original posts, and in particular the words ‘I don’t expect to be tackling my dreams next week’ I have to giggle… I guess I did! Back in February I had no idea that by July one of those dreams would be coming true.

I don’t write this to gloat or be boastful, but more to share what worked for me. I truly didn’t know I could do it until it was done… And I’m still pinching myself. There’s a lot I still need to do and to continue to work on (more on that in another post), but BRAVE gave me somewhere to launch from and do things I never thought possible. The focus on my word, on what it meant to me and what it would look like in my best life has been a revelation. And I can’t wait to continue the process for 2016.

Paisley Vintage has brought laughter, delight, tears, and frustration. In opening the shop I’ve learned so much, met loads of lovely people and been overwhelmed by the support of my family and friends in helping me make my dream a reality. It’s not every day you get to make it happen. Becoming a stockist for Annie Sloan has been a dream and I love spending my days chatting about paint! I’m feeling hopeful for the future with Paisley Vintage, and have lots of ideas bubbling along for the year ahead that I can’t wait to share.

Speaking of sharing, many of you would know that in 2014 I separated from my husband. I was devastated and when I shared my story here on the blog I was embarrassed, ashamed, even scared of what was to come. Looking back now I’m grateful to have shared with you all, as many of you subsequently reached out in support, sharing your own stories and offering such kind words. And so here I am sharing again – this past year DK (my husband) and I have slowly been piecing together our relationship and though I don’t know what the future holds (the older I get the more I realise I don’t know the answers) I’m hopeful. It’s difficult to admit the mistakes and forget the hurt of the past, but in being BRAVE, I have focused on being open, and mindful, and taking one step at a time.

Life is never all sunshine, and this year I’ve lost a friendship that was very important to me. I don’t know what happened, maybe I never will, but I will remember an amazing friendship and that this friend helped me through some intensely dark days and that is something to be grateful for. And between you and I, I’ve been struggling with my health and well-being (physical and mental) and I’m currently avoiding the doctors calls. My health was actually part of my plan for 2015 but I didn’t make progress here at all. It’s that fear thing again! So I think I know where my 2016 One Little Word is going to come from, but I’m a little scared to commit to it….we will soon see! I hope you’ll all come along on the ride with me.

Whatever you have done this year, whether small steps forward or giant leaps, I hope that today you feel the opportunity awaiting in the new year. If you are participating in One Little Word please share below, I’d love to connect with others as it’s always nice for a little support!

So farewell 2015, you’ve been more than I could have dreamed for myself. And hello 2016, I can’t wait.

Catherine xxx

 

Brave – One Little Word February / March 2015

This post has been bubbling round in my head for a few days. I’ve been was thinking about why I procrastinated about getting my March and April prompts completed for One Little Word… because once I did them I felt like a load had been lifted, I’d said what needed to be said and now I just have to get on and do it! (If you’re new to One Little Word you can check out my original post here). I’m excited like I haven’t been in a long time. I’ve had mixed emotions about a milestone birthday coming up, about where I’m going and what I’m doing. And now, setting my ideas in motion and seeing them down on paper, I’m feeling BRAVE.

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February’s prompt was all about making a collage – making my word visible and using images to represent the different ideas I had swirling round about my chosen word. When I look at those pictures they represent a life I want to live, how I want to feel, what I want to see or feel. For some reason that house there, with its verandah and overhanging trees, just makes my heart sing. It reminds me of sitting in dappled sunlight, of watching the kids play in the yard, of an inviting space to relax. It’s a perfect mix of vintage and country and a million things in between.

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SO my collage has food, sites, scenes, words, all manner of things that speak to me. I pulled out a huge pile of magazines that were OK to be torn apart (because, you know, there are some that aren’t!) and started searching. And once I got started I was amazed at how quickly I found things that resonated, and seemed to work with what I’ve been dreaming of.

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For March these were translated into intentions. And this is where I fell over. I procrastinated. I did everything other than write the words down. I even cleaned stuff… which is REALLY saying something. Of course that was all counter productive when I know exactly where I want to go and what needs to happen to get there. But it’s a scary leap to take… to put the words out there and then give myself the chance to achieve it. It seems it’s as much a fear of failure as it is about success. Do you ever feel that way?

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So I chose four areas I want to particularly work on; Organisation, Paisley Vintage, my Health and relationships. I’ve made the plan, developed a rough timeline and started asking questions. I can tell you that I’m already a wary of that health one, but I know it’s something that has to be done. And I know there are some easy things I could do straight away to fix it.

This course as really fed my love of all things creative – my binder is becoming something really special to me and I love looking through it for a reminder of what I’m working on. And have those two cheeky cherubs smiling back doesn’t hurt either!

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Whatever happens I’m enjoying exploring the possibilities. And this weekend I’m painting… which is just perfect!

Catherine xxx

 

 

 

 

Brave, One Little Word – February 2015

When I first posted back in January that I was participating in Ali Edwards’ online workshop One Little Word (you can read my initial post here) I had no real idea about what I was getting myself in to. I mean, I’d seen some lovely quotes, some beautiful art journals and scrapbooks, but did I really know where this would leave? Not a clue.

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I’ve spent the month completing Ali’s prompts, and focusing on my one little word, Brave. In creating my binder I’ve got something tangible to hang on to… and to look through when I need a reminder of what I want from this year. I’ve built on to the prompts and included photos, quotes, project life cards, movie tickets… things that are meaningful to my focus on bravery, and in a big picture sense, what I want from life.

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I’ve been surprised, challenged, sad, angry… such a range of emotions. It’s hard to be honest with yourself, when there is no one else around, about exactly where you are and then where you want to be. But doing that is exactly what I need. In recording the things that I want invite into my life, searching for definitions, quotes, and images that reflect my word, I’ve identified my elephant in the room.

FEAR.

I realise that much of what I’m doing – the way I’m living, loving, just simply being, is founded on fear. I’ve been afraid of consequences and mistakes, of looking foolish or unpopular, of just doing the wrong thing. But most of all, of being hurt. And so there is procrastination, avoidance, laughing off the serious stuff or shrugging and changing the subject. I guess that this isn’t a huge epiphany for many – but I definitely feel like I’m looking at a reality that I want to change.

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If I get nothing else from this year (and believe me, I plan on doing a lot more) this kind of awareness is REALLY huge in my little world. Yes it’s all in my head right now. No I don’t expect that I will be eloquently expressing my emotions or tackling my dreams next week. It’s all in the journey. And I’m really loving it.

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The pictures included in this post are from my One Little Word binder. I had one vision in my mind, then I walked into my local scrapbooking store, saw the gold binder and suddenly went in a completely different direction. I’m not usually a gold girl, but I’m loving this binder, loving all the bits and bobs that I’ve found to decorate it, and most especially, loving the process of sitting down in the peace and quiet and adding to it. I’ve even started on a project life journey, but that’s a post for another day.

Catherine xxx

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